Wow
wow life really doesn't always work out the way you want it to I think it takes you in the direction that it wants you to go in and you really have no control over it. Destiny is Destiny and the Universe will allow it to happen.
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Sorry..
I am sorry for all the people I've hurt, who I've been hurting and who will continue to hurt because of ME. I've never ever hurt anyone who I considered a part of me..On purpose, How could I? How could I when we share/shared a life together, When we expressed ourselves to each other in every way How could I hurt you on purpose when I LOVE/LOVED YOU? How could I Intentionally hurt you, when seeing the PAIN in your eyes cut me so deep. Life just has a funny way of creating these situations that make us look heartless. and It has a funny way of creating monsters out of us...
NUMBNESS
I have NO understanding as to why and how someone can feel NUMB...No explanation as to why...I feel NUMB. All I know is I have absolutely no feelings towards anything anymore. Its almost as if My Life stands still while the world around me is in constant motion, Its almost as if every other process in my body stops, leaving only my thought process.. Its bad enough that I cannot fathom this and even worst that I dont know how to COPE with it. I push people away..even the ones I want to be there deep down... I 'crawl into myself'...and shut down Its hard for me to respond to the most basic questions which require help from my 'Inner-self', so I resort to 'IDK' BECAUSE I truly don't, At least not when I am numb when I am NUMB I feel nothing but the need to cry, Its like my tears take all the words I want to say with them as they pour out.
Disappointments
Sometimes the one you love can be a very big disappointment. .. sometimes the one you love won't be there when you need him the most.. sometimes he may not understand the extent to which you value something and because of this he ruins it and through it all as women we give them another chance only to be disappointed again?....and what then?